Top ten lies of the end of the school year

GOODNESS!!!
It has been so long since I have written on here! Life has yet again changed, and things have swiftly become different. Influences and friends I have had in my life are no longer there (Some for the better, some for the worse) and I have made new friends and gained more righteous influences in my life.
Okay, just so my wonderful readers do not think that I have forgotten about them...Here are the top ten lies told by people at the end of the school year!
1) We'll hang out over the summer.
This one is the biggest lie because very few people follow through with this 'promise'.
2) We'll probably have classes together next year.
There are thousands of students in your high school, and only eight classes in you schedule. It is not logical to believe that you will, in fact, have classes together again. A class at the very most is possible.
3) I am going to miss you over the summer!
Unless they are one of your closest friends, it is unlikely that they will miss you. People are selfish, it's in our nature, so it is more likely that they will get involved in their own lives and forget all about you until the fall comes around.
4) You'll remember the things I taught you this year.
This is usually said by teachers. It is almost ALWAYS wrong. Why the crap would I remember how to split genes and find the DNA strand's sub-particles. We barely know this crap in class, why would it stay in our brains after like, four months of no school?
5) Our relationship is special, it will last the summer. 
Summer is a relationship murderer. Months of barely seeing your "baby" make it hard to stay together. Your relationship is not special, it's a freaking high school relationship. If it does last the summer, then it most definitely is, but it is highly unlikely.
6) I'm going to get tan this summer.
If you are not already starting to tan from the springtime sun, it is unlikely that you will tan from the summer sun. If you're a total whitie, accept it and move on darling.
7) I won't change too much this summer.
This is possibly the biggest and most uncontrollable lie ever. People change. Experiences that we have had influence out personalities and reactions to situations. There are a lot of new experiences and situations that go on during the summer that change us. Accept it. It's a good thing.
8) I'm going to be busy this entire summer.
You may think your life is hectic, but  it probably isn't. As teenagers we tend to over exaggerate things. You might be busy a lot, but there is no way that you won't have at least some free time. You're not a machine, you're a freaking human being. Enjoy life you idiot.
9) I'm going to get in shape this summer.
If you're not already starting to get in shape, and working towards it, it is unlikely that you will do so in the months you have off of school. Be realistic, you're going to spend some of your time being a couch potato like the rest of us. Not always burning fat and eating celery.
10) I am excited for next year. 
This may be absolutely true for the kids who love school and do math for fun, but for the vast majority of us, we will spend the last week of summer grumbling about having to go back to school. So shuttup you wannabe.

NEW YEAR 2012

It's a new year! How are we going to celebrate? Let's make some changes!! *applause* But let's get real here, how many New Years Resolutions make it past March? Or even to March? The best way to actually keep the promises we make to ourselves at this time of year is simple; start small. For example if your goal for the year is to lose weight take it by weeks. Start out with week one: watch calorie intake. Then move on to week two: exercise twice this week. If you start small eventually you'll make your goal.
One of my personal goals is to be more nice to people, in the way that I think, and the way that I act and talk. This is going to be hard because I'm stuck in a bad mind set that makes being nice a little difficult. I have a plan to make my goal and stick with it. Comment and tell me your goals for the New Year. I'm curios as to what everybody wants to change.

Merry Christmas!

Ah, Christmas is in the air. (: I finished all my shopping and now I'm just sitting back and wrapping presents like a boss. (: I'm really glad my life is starting to get normal again. After all the crazy crap that has been happening since October, I'm glad I'm finally drama free and happy as a lark. (BTW, what is a lark? And why is it so happy?) Who decided to use such an odd expression?)
On the topic of Christmas...It drives me nuts when people say, "Happy Holidays!" Instead of, "Marry Christmas!"!! I don't care if you tell me happy Hanukkah I'm okay with that, If you tell me Happy Kwanzaa, I'm okay with that, but not Happy Holidays! I don't care about being politically correct! I just care about the sentiment! People choose to be offended. Grr, that really kills my mojo. I hope this year has been good for you my wonderful loyal readers. :D I love you and I hope your Christmas is Merry. Lol, Stay Amazing (:

Broken Heart?

I found this on the web and it hit home with me so I'm putting it on my blog. Please read the whole things. I love you guys (:

"Broken heart? Read this. Trust me.

I know you miss him and I know you think you can’t be without him. I know he told you he loved you and I know he said he'd never leave. I know although you knew you shouldn't have believed that, you did and I know you want him more than anything. I know you spend extra time doing your makeup and hair perfect just in case he looks your way and I know secretly, yo...u want to bump into him anywhere you go. I know you get that feeling when you walk past him and I know you just want him to look your way. I know he called you his baby and his number one and I know he told you he loved you at the end of each of his texts. I know he told you after he's caused you so much pain. I know your face lights up at the mention of his name and I know that you were his world and I know he made you happy. I know you re-read the saved texts from him that you should of deleted ages ago and I know you can’t figure out what’s making you still like him so much even you’re scared to talk about him to your friends because you don’t want them to know how amazing he is. I know you still get that tingle feeling if he so much as looks as though he's looking your way and I know that the whole day you'll be analyzing what that look meant. I know you know he used you and I know you always forgave him for all his faults no matter what. I know you smile bigger, talk louder and laugh more when you see him anywhere near and I know that’s because you just want him to notice you again. I know you compare every guy to him and I know you'd do anything to prove your love for him. I know you take out his mistakes out on everyone but him and I know you don't mean to. I know you read your saved Facebook conversations you had with him every night and I know you cry every time. I know you think you won't care for anyone as much as you care for him and I know you tell everyone you’re 'obviously' over him. I know that you don't know that I can see right through that. I know you listen to the songs that remind you of him every night and I know you cry yourself to sleep. I know you'd do anything to be perfect for him and I know if it meant you had to stab yourself the next day after seeing him, if it meant spending a whole day with him, you'd do it. I know you can't figure out what’s so different about him to all the other guys you've been with previously and I know he's the reason you look in the mirror too much. I know you get that feeling every time you get a text, just because of the slight chance it might be him and I know anyone can see the hurt in your eyes when you find out it isn't. I know you can’t figure out why he left you and I know you'll never get an answer to that question. I know that. Trust me. Now listen. I know he doesn't miss you and I know he doesn't look at you twice. I know that if he does catch your eye it's because you’re staring at him and he's just looking around. I know your texts to him were deleted a long time ago, along with the Facebook conversations and I know he's dating a new person now. I know for a fact that he doesn't compare her to you. I know he doesn't have feelings for you anymore and I know he just doesn't care. I know he doesn't care about you no more. He never did. Trust me. I should know. I know you can relate to everything I said because he made us all feel the same. Do me a favor please? When he's done with his current girlfriend/boyfriend, pass this onto her/him. I know you will because you appreciate this as much as I did when it got passed to me. Knowing you’re not the only one he's hurt though makes you feel better, I guess. I wonder how many more people he’s gonna hurt. P.S, I know you still miss him. Even after reading this and realizing someone else felt exactly the same way about him that you do now. But trust me; the person he's dating now will feel exactly how you felt. Remember you gotta be strong, keep your chin up and your head held high. [You will get over him], I promise you. It’s just gonna take time.only a real bestfriend will say this..thanks Corey."

Love you guys, Stay AMAZING for me (:

Scared to death

We are all human (Well MOST of us are...) so we all get scared, but one of the scariest things in life is letting someone in. Letting them get to know you, letting yourself get attached, letting yourself feel something for them. I think one of the biggest reasons it is so scary to like someone, is you know there is always going to be a goodbye. Whether it is a break up, a death, a move, rejection,  or even time, you're eventually going to have to let them go. That hurts. It's not the goodbye that is so scary, it is the hello, because at hello you know you're eventually going to have to say goodbye. That is why some people choose not to even let the hello happen.
We are all fragile little creatures, no matter how much we claim we are not. We all go through heartbreak, loss, and goodbye. We are full of emotions that tend to dictate our actions and therefore dictate our character. What other reason would someone have for killing someone else? It's raw emotion that drives them. It's emotion that is so dangerous. Think about your family, think about what you would do to protect them against a man wanting to cause them harm. Would you not be willing to shoot them to save a family member? That is what scares me. Getting so attached to someone that I would be willing to kill to keep them safe; getting so attached that it kills me when the goodbye eventually comes around. No matter how much we want it to, things will never be the same after the goodbye. You may say hello again, but it'll never be like the initial hello, the goodbye will always be there, and therefore  you two will never be the same.
People scare me. They straight up scare me, because I know most of them think and feel the same things that I do, and I'm pretty scary. We all have the same fears, whether it is death, spiders, or the fear of losing someone close to us. It's scary to be human, because being human implies being weak, and weakness is the root of fear. Feeling powerless is the one thing we all fear, and what could make you feel as powerless as goodbye?
While most of us have religions that teach of an after life, there is always some doubt in the back of our minds, and that is called survival instinct. It's one of many reasons that it hurts so bad to lose someone. We all want to live and flourish to carry on our species and enjoy a fairy tale life. Notice though, that it is the fairy tales that tell of "goodbye" that mean the most to us? "The Fox and the Hound", "Bambie", and even "Dear John". The stories relate closer to us, warm and wound our hearts at the same time because they have a basis of reality to them.
People are scary. Relationships, friendships, partnerships, they are all delicate social ties that have to be very diligently balanced in order to work and be maintained. Never in my life have I been so hurt by a friend as I was these last two months. The pain was almost unbearable. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even breathe without the pain digging its hooks into me and trying to drag me down. All because of a painful and unavoidable goodbye. I'm scared to death that this will happen to me again, so I work hard to love and maintain my wonderful friendships and remind people that they mean a lot to me. I wish more than anything that I could stop being so human, leave behind the survival instinct, and just take the leaps. Just be able to love without fear of the loss; say hello without thinking of the goodbye. No amount of wishing will get me anywhere though, I'll have to learn to jump, and pretend I have wings to catch myself before I hit the ground. In the end I do not want to be scared to death, I want to be happy to live.
Stay Amazing (:

Epic Twelve's video!!

Holy crap! So I love and live music, especially Techno! It's my favorite. SO I was on facebook today (What else is new?) and I was looking at Basshunter's page and he posted this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nXmSWSXyA3s
My mind is blown. The kid is only sixteen. I love this song and I want it on my laptop so I can jam to it all the time! I love it!! Check this kid out!