Happy 20th Birthday Julia

Joyeux anniversaire soeur gros, tu me manques tellement! Vous auriez eu vingt ans aujourd'hui. Fou n'est-ce pas? La vie ne sera jamais la même sans vous. Près de trois ans depuis que vous avez morts. On dirait que jamais, et pourtant il se sent comme si c'était hier. Difficile à croire que j'ai vit trois ans de ma vie sans toi. Notre frère est un idiot n'est-il pas? Toutes les choses stupides que vous at-il ressent le besoin d'une place vous. Me rend triste et fou en même temps. Je vous sens avec moi, parfois, et il est l'un des meilleurs sentiments que j'ai jamais eu. Je sais que vous serez toujours là, avec moi, même si je ne peux pas voir, sentir, ou que vous touchez. J'ai dit à mon ami un peu plus sur une expérience que j'ai eu après tu es mort et il le libellé comme suit: «En parlant à mon âme». Aimez-vous! Vous avez eu une belle vie, et maintenant dans la mort vous êtes toujours étonnante.
 TRANSLATION:"Happy birthday big sister, I miss you so much! You would have been twenty years old today. Crazy is it not? Life will never be the same without you. Almost three years since you died. Seems like forever, yet it feels like it was just yesterday. Hard to believe that I have lives three whole years of my life without you. Our brother is an idiot is he not? All the dumb things you did he feels the need to one up you. Makes me sad and mad at the same time. I feel you with me sometimes and it is one of the best feelings I have ever had. I know you will always be here, with me, even if I cannot see, feel, or touch you. I told my friend a little bit about an experience I had after you died and he worded it as, "Speaking to my soul". Love you! You have had a great life, and now in death you are still amazing. "

Here is a poem I wrote about Julia a little while ago. It is posted on my other blog "Night Fallen".

Moving on

I thought it was jut the wind passing through,

But much to my surprise it was you,

Sending chills down my spin,

Letting me know it will be all right,

I cry everyday since you left Earth to escape,

Oh how your absence is filling me with such heartache,

I'm drowning our mamma in my tears,

Although time has passed into years.

I am missing you yet again today,

So very haunted by your smiling face,

You're reaching out and letting go,

 Working so hard to let me know,

You are there for me,

Even though it is just your picture I see,

You'd hold me in your arms,

You are so close, yet so very far,

The days have gotten dark,

And moving on is always hard,

But you  left me with your mark,

To be left forever in my heart,

So until we meet again,

I will be moving on to meet my end,

And at last we will be together,

To spend happily the rest of forever

I wrote this in memory of my sister, Julia Lea Robison, 1991-2008. RIP Jewel, we miss you so much.

Sleep ranting...

I have decided to put an end to cat diaries. Too hard to write, too hard to read. Any protests? I thought not. My birthday was good but the "party" will be better. I am taking three close friends to Lagoon this week and it shall be epic. I am a lazy personage. Mhm, Now stop your complaints. (OR I SHALL MAKE YOU SUFFER!! EXCRUTIATING PAINS!!!) In other words I will add the song "Friday" By Rebbecca Black to this. (I''m kidding, I love you too much. We should use that song in interrogation rooms. I would confess after the fifth time they played it...anything to make it stop...) What is up with The Amazing Staci? (Yeah, I am talking about myself in a third person...I think it was the mention of that torturous song...makes me weirder than usual...) Nothing. NOTHING! Well...something. I am going to camp soon...and then Education Week up at BYU in August. Yeah, I am so ninja...OH MY GOSH! I have news. Everyone who knows me and loves me will be excised about this. There is a blender called a ninja. Imagine that conversation..."Yeah, I have a Ninja in my kitchen. They chop up my food for me at the speed of electricity. Oh, and their black..." I don't know about you, but I would feel like that was something to brag about. I would be super proud of this. I saw the Winnie The Pooh movie. It was cute. Made me sad that the voices were not the same as my childhood. Stupid Walt Disney! They take away all the wholesome shows, change my characters, and add pure stupidity to everything they air. Just you wait...when I am rich and have some pull in the community...things will change. For the better! (Unlike Obama's campaign. He said things would change. And they did. FOR THE WORSE!) Yeah, I am just on a rant tonight. Lots of stuff happening lately that sucks worse than a five dollar hoe. (yeah, that was a wee bit inappropriate. Sorry. I try to keep my blog rated G) But it was funny, huh? I am so sorry...Naw, not really. I just feel slightly bad...Oh, BTW! I have recently learned that no one should ever let me use an electric razor. My dog looks like he got spat out by a lawnmower. I am not kidding. Poor thing had his dignity shaved off. He was a sheltie, now he looks like an over grown hampster that found itself in a garbage disposal. Special shout out to my "Aunt" Terry. Love the purse and the shirt! YOU DA BOMB! I just got the urge to beat someone with a large foam covered bat until I cry tears of joy. Any volunteers? Come on! It would be a late birthday present...This has no real subject does it? I am like...sleep ranting. (I say sleep ranting because I am tired, and when I get tired, lack of sleep causes me to say things that are really true...sometimes too true. The truth causes pain or whatever...) Well...this has been an AMAZING rant. Love ya, stay Amazing. :D