Not a second thought

He will never get a say in how I feel, how I live, and who I love. He will never get to tell me what to do or how to do it. I am my own woman, and I do not take orders from someone who is clearly below my league. I no longer care what he says, thinks, or does. I am too strong to be weak for him. I am too smart to dumb myself down for him. I am too tall to lower myself to his standards. I will continue to use the blessing of freedom of speech until my voice is no more. I will continue in the pursuit of happiness until I have found heaven. I would rather die a warriors death in the quest of what is right, then to die in the arms of someone I do not love, nor will I ever love. I have a mind of my own and you have no right or reason to know what is on it unless I want you to.  He needs to realize that I need space as much as I need love, but I do not need his love. I have the love of people who matter because they matter; they give their love and never threaten to take it away if I do not consent to what they ask, they love me, stubbornness and all. He is the mud stuck in my tire, rolling under me over and over and I am unaware of his presence. He is the dead bug on my windshield, just getting in the way and making my unable to see life as it is. He is the gum in the carpet, a true pain in the rear end to try to get rid of. So my readers I tell you this: He is not worth a second thought to me, nor should he be to you, because his way is not the right way. Do not ever let someone like him get you down, make you live in fear, or try to silence your voice. You are too Amazing to put up with someone like him, just as I am too Amazing to even mention his name. Love you, Stay simply Amazing. ;)

A few tips to help you get off your butt

Yes, As I have said before, summer makes us lazy. The cure? Follow these few simple steps. ;) (K8 T this is in answer to your suggestion. Thanks for the ideas. Keep them coming. ;)

• Wake up before noon. No matter what time you went to bed, get up by at latest, ten o'clock. This will help keep your mind fresh and you up and moving. When you sleep in til noon you just feel like a lazy slob and do not do anything for the rest of the day. GET OFF YOUR BUTT!!
• Make plans for every day of the week. They don't have to be huge plans, just enough to give you something to do each day. Like today I am going swimming. Tomorrow I have a date, Thursday I have plans with a friend, and Friday I have plans with a few friends. Just motivate yourself in little ways like this and it will help you to GET OFF YOUR BUTT!!
• Do a chore a day. Yeah, I know, we all hate cleaning and what not, but really it will help to keep the house clean, you to not feel like a slob, and it will get you off your butt. Eventually you will run out of things to clean, and when this happens, feel free to make a mess for tomorrow. (I am just kidding.). So what have we learned? Cleaning helps you GET OFF YOUR BUTT!
• Limit your technology time. Yeah that sounds like a big pile of poop, but if you give yourself limits, you will be happier. Instead of wasting your day in front of your laptop *COUGH COUGH*  you will find better things to do with it. It is so easy to be on Facebook forever, but if you tell yourself, "only an hour or two" and then stand by that you'll feel better and GET OFF YOUR BUTT!!
• Tape a sign on your mirror, your door, your laptop, your tv, your couch, and your forehead if needed that says: GET OFF YOUR BUTT!! It really will help you GET OFF YOUR BUTT. ;)

That is all. Stay Amazing. ;)

Monster.

The other day I was sitting on the couch, browsing the web on my laptop and out side the window I hear this little high pitched scream. I turn to see my brother (Kelly) walking through the door with this little fuzzy screaming creature tearing his claws into my brother's hands. Kelly tells me to go grab a box as he sets the little kitten down. I do so and ask him where the little fuzzbag came from. So, here, my dear sweet readers, is the story of Monster the five week old kitten.
Kelly: "Me and some friends were walking down the side of the street and we hear this little noise. As we got closer to this road kill we found this little kitten screaming and pawing at his mother's dead body. So the girl I was with picks him up and takes him home. We bathed him and took care of him but it soon became apparent that she could not keep the little cat. I knew that Mom and Dad would not be happy but I had to help the little guy so I brought him home." Kelly says to me, "I didn't want to see him die. He is just so cute, and a little monster at that." Soon after my brother declared the kitten's name to be Monster. My mom and I had to go to the pet store and buy some kitten formula so he would not starve. Mom was worried that we would not be able to keep the cat, seeing as how we already had two cats (one an indoor, the other an outdoor) and two dogs.  When my dad got home he was sweet talked into letting us take care of Monster. At my yard sale this weekend I sold  one of my dogs (which I am just heartbroken over.) and I was crying. I looked at my dad and said, "You realize that now we can't get rid of the cat, I would have no heart left." My dad agreed to keep little Monster and now the new addition to our family is purring and rubbing against my face. Welcome home kitten. Welcome home. Stay Amazing. =)

YARD SALE

YARD SALE!!! JUNE 17-18 7015 SOUTH 3480 WEST WOODGREEN ROAD! COME BUY FOOD AND AWESOMENESS. DONATIONS WILL BE ACCEPTED. ;D (if you love me, truly deeply and madly you will come. Cause I am, after all The Amazing Staci) love YOU GUYS, SEE YOU THERE!. We are raising money for religious educational purposes. It will be a ton of fun, I am doing it with two of my best friend's and we have a lot of cool and random things on sale, so I will see you there!!

Goodbye Shariah.

Yesterday, June 8, 2011, my friend Shariah Casper was struck by a train and died instantly. She was a good friend, not all that close, but she still had a huge impact on my life. She was the type of person who would put you in your place when she knew you were wrong, and she could care less what people thought of her. She was the type to play to the beat of her own drum. I loved that girl, even though we had our differences when it came to opinion of religion and politics. She had a heart of gold, under a fighter's armor. We  miss you pretty girl, RIP and may our prayers be with your family and friends in their time of need. 
A friend of mine made this. Check it out but be prepared to cry! http://www.youtube.com/user/SmileesForYou
In other news, I sent in my author's proof today. Yeah, I am getting a poem published in a book. Cool right? I had to condense it which is every artist's worst nightmare and something I am not very happy about. It is crazy to think that MY work will be in someone's book. People will buy and read my art. OH MY GOSH! You have no idea how scary, yet exciting that is. There is a billion different scenarios running through my head where everything fails and I turn into a stupid, washed up dreamer, crazy. Maybe I already am. Who knows, and who is to say? Love you guys! Stay Amazing. R.I.P Shariah! I will always keep you in my heart.

losing it

It is official, I, The Amazing Staci, am losing it. There is a huge pressure on me, that will stay on me through out the summer, there is a complicated social life, and I have cabin fever. I have been out and about but I am dying to go on a trip, maybe see my family. I can't though, I have too much responsibility, and I am too broke to do very much. I want to run and scream, go camping and hunting, but at the same time I just want to lounge on the beach. I am going to go crazy if I am forced to sit around all summer. I want to find a secure job but we all know how hard that is for the young in this economy. Not only is the cabin fever driving me crazy, but there is a harsh situation haunting me, always looming in the corner, and I think I just stepped into the shadow. I need something of substance to drag me back into the light, yet I seem unable to find it. Pretty soon I am going to be one of those weirdos walking around muttering to themselves and screaming when forced to go home. Yeah, I am losing it. GAHHHHH!!! That is about it for now, I'll update you on my fragile veil of sanity soon. Love you! Stay Amazing.

Lazy

There is something about summer where all the boys get sluggish and glued to the TV whilst girls find themselves spending way too much time in front of the mirror or computer screen (Who, me? NEVER!!....) Summer is the season of lazy. Honestly, there are days when I can barely find the motivation to get out of bed. What is it about this magical season that prompts us to waist it by spending our time inside?  Our parents are always telling us about "the good old days" when kids were always out on their bikes, never inside sitting on their behinds. What has changed? Is it that we now have a lot more technology or is it that our discipline has turned into "Oh Tommy, you lit the house on fire after eating all the candy and throwing a tantrum over your video game, put your nose in the corner." Where in our parents' day and age it was, "You spilled apple juice on my carpet??!!! Go pick your switch so I can bend you over my knee and beat your butt!!". I think it is a mixture of the two. I mean, sometimes you just have to beat some sense into your kid, and they should only spend so much time in front of any given screen. Our generation has gotten so lazy!! Sure we don't have to make our own cloths and hunt for our food, but that does not mean we should spend all our time on our butts! No wonder they are getting bigger! (Well I admit, I have a big butt that has seen a lot of use, but I am trying to do something about it.) That is my rant for today. Stay Amazing. =)

Growing up

So summer is finally here., Yay. Can't believe how much life has changed in the last three years. It is mind boggling to thing back and see how much you have changed, and how much life in general has. Teenage years seem to change you almost as much, if not more than, your toddler years do.  As teenagers we are on the edge of the beginning of our single lives where our parents won't be there to coddle us, or fix our mistakes, but we will have to own up to the harsh reality of life. Because of this we are forced to change and mature at quick rate. Some of the things we have to learn is how to control our emotions, our physical needs and wants, and recognized the difference between wants and needs. Growing up is a scary thing. That is all for now. Stay Amazing. =)